Don't say goodbye!

I look away and I smile...
Guess I have cried enough...
And at the end of my life

I tried and I failed
Guess I never got what I wanted...
And at the end of my life

I'm dying and I have lost it
Guess I wanted to hold you hand
And at the end of my life

I still say:
It takes a minute to say hello;
and forever to say goodbye!

A tear in my pillow

I'm starin at the ceiling and its late in the night,
Wishing you'll come back, but that seems nowhere in sight.
I'm tossing and turning and im dreamin of you
I dreamt you'd be back, and how i wish dreams come true.

I wake up to find me alone and a tear starts to roll
I'm weeping quietly with the pillow that I hold
Every single day I pray for you, my love.
The first time i saw you, i felt you were an angel from above.

And I prayed to god " Oh please make her my bride to be"
Fate decided otherwise and I cried " why did it have to be me"
And still I wake up alone with a tear in my pillow.
Wondering If I should call you just to say Hello.

Thinkin about you all the time, sometimes messes up my head
And I fall asleep, not sad but dreaming of you instead...
And this is what happens to me every single night.
I pray that you are beside me and switch on the light.

But all i see is a tear in my pillow.
All I see is a tear in my pillow...

A tear in my pillow - PART 2

So, I'm in bed, tryin my best to sleep.
Its been a fine day, i aint gonna think deep...
hmm, good thoughts about you, thats fine...
It will be a new day soon and ill rise and shine.

Do you ever think of me, I sometimes wonder?
Damn, here I go again and my mind starts to wander...
Then I imagine you lyin besides me;
Hugs and kisses all over my body.

It feels so real, I sense you are near;
And you say "Honey, I love you' in my ear.
I smile and say "I love you too"
Wishing that this will one day come true.

And then I fall asleep thinking about you;
In my dreams all this seems so true.
Look in your dream and tell me what you see?
Every now and then is it me? is it me?

I keep telling myself you will be mine tommorow...
Half awake, I get up and adjust my pillow...
Then my eyes open and you are nowhere to be seen!
And I feel so lonely
ONCE AGAIN!

Missing you like crazy...

Sittin on the porch, its raining...
I cant escape the rain
I cant escape this pain!
And I'm missing you like crazy...

Babes, I love you
still do,
and im still crying,
and I'M missing you like crazy....

little drops hitting the window pane..
I'm goin insane...
Sitting alone in solitude
And I'm missing you like crazy....

The thunders' crashin down...
I'm losing my mind
Tryin to erase memories...
And I'm missing you like crazy....

And all the people, they feel ashamed...
Everyday is another today...
Its just the months that change....
And I'm missing you like crazy...

re: The letter - a reply!

Hey hi,
Yes, I'm fine and just read your mail;
Waited for it every single day, without fail!
Yes I'm hurt, but I dont need any pity.
I always loved you, so I have moved away with dignity.

I wanted to be with you too, but I was away;
If I really had a choice, I would have never wanted it this way.
Someone needs me at home, we dont talk much, but he is ailing;
he has no one now and if im not here, as a son i'd be failing.

On the other hand I have a career which is waitin;
Wish, we'd have managed this phase and still continued datin'
Coz in a year, I was ready to ask for your hand;
Holdin hands,being in love on our very own island!

Everyone knows it’s been like this from the start
And I have loved you with every beat of my heart.
Cause you’re my first love and you’re the last
There can't be another, I’ve pledged you my heart.

Find someone better, but I hope he never hurts you;
Coz you should never feel what i'm goin through.
Thats why I ask you to love someone...
who loves you more than you do...

I guess this is all I want to say...
Thank you and have a nice day!

The Letter.

Dear Madhu,
Hey hi, How are things with you?
I'm fine and hope to hear the same from you!
I know you mailed, but I just ain't callin
'Move on Madhu and please stop tryin'

Things don't stop, you need to carry on!
Life is beautiful, so what if i'm gone...
Just dont do anythin stupid and use your mind.
For a guy like you, someone else shouldnt be hard to find...

Things just happened, I don't know why;
But dont blame yourself and it wasn't another guy.
I want you to be happy, for that you need to try!
And ill be happy too when the captain soars high!

I do know thats its no longer you and me;
but what the future holds even i cannot foresee..
Its not like you didnt love me or you just didnt care.
But everytime I missed you, you just werent there...

Madhu, make me yesterday's news from today.
I know, this is gonna be difficult no matter what I say
But if something ever happens to you anyday!
Just remember I'll just be a call away...

to be continued...

You and me...

You walk by, with a flower in your hand
I standby with wept tears in mine...

You smile as he puts his hand on your shoulder
I smile when friends put their hands on mine...

You talk about things a few months down the line
I think of us a few months back in time...

You tell me its no use,and i have to start anew
Its just that I cant get used to living without you

You look upon my misery with a pitiful sigh
And yet in your memories let me live and let me die

You are someone every guy would love to get
and yet, you are someone I wish I had never met...

The man who could never say goodbye

How many tears must a man cry
before he decides to finally say goodbye?
how many times does he give up his life
when he knows there is no calm in the tide...

why dont we accept that
not'all love stories are success stories
and that a thing of beauty;
can always have uncertain glories...

but;

when was it said that if one person
moves on,the other shouldnt weep
or cant it be that the other can still
love her till he finally goes to sleep

I am no god, nor am i a saint
why ask me to move on and forget her
when you know i was, am;
and will always be in love with her....

When life is a dream

Someone said you have moved on and are happy...
I said I have moved on too but why am I lying?
Someone said you have moved on...

The stars tell me a different story
But even they get clouded as it rains tears...
the stars tell me a different story...

I will fight my lonliness with the world
Just go away from me completely...
I will fight this lonliness alone

Asking me to forget you is not possible, how can i?
You were real, not a dream and i loved you
asking me to forget you is not possible...

All those memories, how do i forget
that day for our marriage which we cannot reach
All those memories, how do i forget?

Oh how I will give away all this for one smile of yours...
if only you'd let me meet you once...
How I will give this all away for one last smile of yours...

The last supper

You have finally spoken
You let me heart broken...
Said its over I don't love you no more...
The pain is too much aint walkin that lane anymore,

But tell me where did I go wrong?
This pain I cant endure any long...
Tell me how do I save my life...
Im in sadness, dont want any more strife...

Begging on my knees...
Asking you for one last dinner...
Whats there for you to lose?
How much more can i let you bruise?

I know I am no one to make you wait
If you have someone else, I still debate...
Yet we talk, you still care...
Just unable to erase those memories we share....

Let us meet for a final goodbye
Keep an open mind babes, Give it one last try
Mistakes are what we learn from
But I will never learn to say goodbye!

So Vulnerable

As I see you kiss him
I feel angry...
As I see him hugging you
I feel hurt...
As I see two happy faces
I feel disgusted...

Why do you leave me so vulnerable?
Why am i so powerless?
Why on earth did it all go wrong?

I hate those 7 words you say
Sorry I am just your friend now...
I hate those 7 words you say...
I think I have feelings for someone
I hate those 7 words you say..
I dont see us being together again...

Why do you leave me so vulnerable?
Why am I so powerless?
Why on earth did it all go wrong?

I guess I need to move on...
Life is beautiful it just goes on...
Just remember what i gave you was pure love...
And thats why I never hurt you...the one I truly loved...

Once in a while do look at me...

I know you are gone, But I still do love you
Once in a while, I'd love to look at you
Once in a while, I'd love to talk to you
Once in a while, I'd love to smile with you

Isn't it funny, its all over, and yet life's not over..
don't you see the pain in my eyes..
don't you ever cry the way i did...
don't you miss me the way i do you..

But if ever we were to meet one day
See us being fine
See us happy the way you want me...
See us smile about those days

And when the meeting's over and you bid adieu
I shall cry silent tears then
I shall play with your kids and wish they were ours
I shall wait to see you one more time..

I know you are gone, But I still do love you
Once in a while, I'd love to look at you
Once in a while, I'd love to talk to you
Once in a while, I'd love to smile with you

Footprints in the sands of time..

Me to her
Oh, how I dreamt that one day you will possess me,
How beautiful will you look when I ask for your hand,
As we walk, holding hands the ring will be shining,
Glistening, in the sun as we walk thro' the sand.

But the beach seems empty
I don't see anyone besides me?
Why do I not see your footprints in the sand?
Maybe you are gone but was I not worthy of your hand?

Be happy wherever you are, but if someone ever hurt you
During such times of despair, I will always carry you...

God to me
Remember when you were walking along the beach
What you gave her, is what I always preach
Love someone for what they are, not what you want them to be
I'm showin her the light, but for that she has to open her eye

And everytime you saw your footprint in the sand
and there was only one pair, she had already taken her stand
This is life and everything here happens for good
I'm proud of you, and I know you did all you could...

But when you needed me the most, dont think i left you
During such times of despair it was then that I carried you

The paintng part 2.

It's ok in the day, as I try to stay busy!
But I still wonder how and where she is!
I'm sick of crying, but I'm not drinkin' yet
Why does her love seem so hard to get?

Every minute is spent thinkin of her
But a post mortem doesnt get the lost back
Sittin under the shower, the water's flowing,
But its the tears thats really hurtin!

I want to paint her a picture;
about the way i feel.
She knows my love for her is strong
Yet it hurts that it all went wrong!

Decisions in a relationship are made by two
I opened my heart to her and she did so to
I was here and she was there, were we missing something?
Wish i was given a year and a half to pop her the ring!

I want to paint her a picture;
about the way I feel.
We holding hands, walking together, being in love all day
It's never too late, before it all fades away

The Painting...

A simple dream of being forever yours...
We spending time, every day a few hours...
beautiful kids, we'd have two...
Me holding one kid, and the other with you...

Their evenings would be in the garden swingin'
Holdin hands in the garden we'd be walkin;
Sittin alone in the garden, I get such memoirs
Smilin, wishing these kids could have been ours!

But should I hate whats been done...
When the damage can never come undone...
Hatred cannot end hatred, love alone can
Just be happy girl, and this from an also ran...

Maybe one day you will know of my role..
I've set a target, and you are my goal!
The heaviness of being so much in love with you
Has been replaced by the lightness of startin all over again

I see our future being painted in a future not so far...
But If not me I'll still be happy wherever you are...

Up up and away!

The wings are clipped,
I'm dying one day at a time...
I feel rejected and lost
it seems the whole world is against me...

all hope seems lost, but the spirit remains
I'm dying one day at a time....
i resolve to fly no matter what...
I still wait to know whats my crime..

Nothing should stop me now, i wont be satisfied
I'm living one day at a time...
the pain is inevitable i still aim for the sky
nothin can stop me, not a penny nor a dime

And i fly, but i still cant touch the sky
I'm living one day at a time...
the past is painful,the future can behold
my owner will realise it was always me...

the sky is beautiful, the world is brown
im hoping one day at a time...
only if she wanted, will i come down...
I'm praying one day at a time...
only if she wanted, will i come down...

My doors are always open.

When someone breaks your heart;
and leaves you in pain and suffering.
Come to me then my love...
My doors will always remain open to you...

Now you dont need me, now you feel relieved;
Your beauty can now capture a million hearts.
Now your beauty is beyond compare...
Even a rose withers near you...

But if ever something happens to you;
And you feel your life is not as good...
Come to me then my sweetheart;
I'll be in my knees begging you to come back.

There are no contracts in love...
I know I lost when you said you dont love me anymore...
But if you see darkness in your life and have nowhere to go;
The candles outside my house will still be shining bright...

When someone else breaks your heart ;
and leaves you in pain and suffering.
Come to me then my love;
My doors will always be open to you...

Its a late goodbye!

As days turn to months, and months to years
No one will remember what I went through or my silent tears
I'll just be another desperate broken heart...
They will blame it on the distance which made us apart...

I'll live in isolation living with regret
That the only person I truly loved I couldnt get...
I know that the time that has gone Ill never get back
The only time I have is now and that seems off-track

Two kids holding hands, running with each other smiling
Suddenly you let go off me and keep running....
I can't keep pace,I feel lost as I wanted to run the last mile with you
Still running, you turn back, smile and say a late goodbye

I now walk alone,run alone live alone and sleep alone
When I'm dead, you will read about a sad man on my tombstone...
I can have only one real mother and there can be only one you
I have no choice but to live life this way...

All your love letters are now read and piled up
I sometimes wonder if you have thrown mine in the fire...
All that was mine with you, have left no sentiments or desire...
A yet there is nothing I can say or do, you have already said goodbye

I feel like a pauper foolishly in love with a princess...
My tears washing away the dream I had painted in canvas...

But I'm sorry I can never let go...
Maybe this this love...
I'm sorry I can never let go...
Maybe this really is love...

A question to all of you...

There was this boy and there was this girl;
And they loved each other just like anyone else.
And the captain would call her every single day;
Be it london, new york, India or norway.

And when he reached base, they still spoke to each other;
In his industry there were a lot of girls but he loved her like no other.
Somehow she started missing him as he was always away...
And one day called it off much to his dismay...

And he looked back at the times he went over to meet her;
It was for a day or two but even then he couldnt be with her.
He took her along to people and places instead of just being together;
And though he didnt realise it, she felt their love go weaker...

And when it hit him hard, he wanted to cut himself to pieces;
The plane he was carrying to crash and burn him to ashes.
But he was scared to do so and cried himself to tears;
And if she didnt come back he would be lonely for years...

He knows he made a mistake but deserves chance;
Anything that can make her give me another glance
she is 22 now and he 25, he loves her like crazy and thats his question to you...
What does he do? should he wait or regret this forever and bid her adieu...

The Baton

The wait's long enough, I'm third in the circuit...
The prize sittin on the table is my only pursuit...
I call this life's relay and its coming a full circle...
My life's biggest dream could now become all fruitful!

The race has already begun, our team is doing fine...
All i need is the baton and reach the finish line
The first runner is running and he takes his time...
With the baton the cup would always be mine...

And finally the second runner passes it on to me...
All this wait, I feel is finally worth while
I know it will take time for me to reach the finish line
But I keep running, hoping i dont drop the baton..

I hear friends cheering, I can sense life moving..
but all I see is the prize thats waitin for me...
Suddenly it seems so near...in a few metres i would cross the finish line
Suddenly I see this other guy, snatching it away...

And before I realise, he has already made his way
The cup seems distant...the crowds are still cheering
But everything around me comes to a standstill...
He wins the race and lifts the cup...

And they all congratulate me...but I feel I lost...
The cup I always wanted to lift is now someone elses
The crowds ask me not to feel disappointed
They said, did you like it when you were running the race...

I said yes...You were the best of the lot,look at it that way then,
But now its time to pass on the baton...

Hope

The wings are clipped,
It seems the whole world is against me...
I feel rejected and lost
I'm dying one day at a time...

All hope seems lost, but the spirit remains
I still wait to know whats my crime..
I resolve to fly no matter what...
I'm dying one day at a time....

Nothing should stop me now,I wont be satisfied
nothing can stop me, not a penny nor a dime
the pain is inevitable, I still aim for the sky
I'm living one day at a time...

I fly, but i still cant touch the sky
my owner will realise it was always me...
the past is painful but the future can behold
I'm living one day at a time...

The sky is beautiful, the world seems brown
I'm hoping one day at a time...
only if she wanted, will i come down...
I'm praying one day at a time...
only if she wanted, will i come down...

A welcome note.

Warm regards to one and all...
I am not sure why I created this blog, but I guess I had a few poems I had written and felt this could be a decent medium to showcase it.
Guess this is where I end.
Happy reading.
Madhusudan