Happy Birthday...

Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you...

I'm sitting here with a few friends;
A piece of cake in front of me.
A knife in hand, I could have another use for...
A silent tear, knowing you are missing....

And girl can you hear me calling you?
Can you protect me from out there...
I feel so lost without you...
This is such a lonely feeling...

Flying high, as fast as I can;
Is the only way to lose this frustration.
You've got all and I, nothing;
Without you life is such a lonely feeling.

And I tear the tag from my suitcase;
Crying in pain, at this slap on my face..
The girl I was born for, had left me for another..
But why did it have to be on this day...
Did you really want to see me cry on my birthday?

Its been a year now, and maybe im tired of crying;
Yet, I still lie when I say i'm fine.
You know I still will always love you;
And it just hurts me so much knowing,
without you, life has no meaning...

And as I struggle to keep the tears inside me...
I hear a song I don't ever want to hear...

Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you..

One day I'll fly away...

Drifting away...no matter where you are...
Flying...hurting...smiling...wanting....
Somethings wrong...I can't go on
Someone help me fly away...

I take my time...I have everything I want
He holds your hands and I drop down
Do I want to live in this world?
I'd rather fly away...

Miles and miles...endless space.
As I take the wings to the sky...
Someone tell her what I'm going through!
And God, let me come closer to you!

Twisted dreams..tortured soul
The times I cried, keeping things inside
There's no way...I know I have to go away
One day I'll fly away...One day I'll fly away....

The girl I called Babes...

I always thought I could stand on my own;
till the day you left me all alone.
Now I can hardly make it through;
Come back, babes...All I want is you...

I'm in such pain, can't you see;
You know I love you more than me.
So I'm begging you on my knees;
come back, babes...please...

Your arms were the walls to our home;
But now the boundaries are broken.
I just cannot take this burden;
come back babes...my heart's all broken...

Life seems so cruel without you near me;
I promise to keep you as happy as you want to be...
You made me laugh, cry, love just by your sight;
Come back, babes...I just cannot cry another night...

You know you loved me before;
Can't you give it a try, once more.
I will love you, till I finally pass away;
Come back, babes...atleast for a day...

Why aren't you being sorry!

I don't know why;
you ever took such a stride...
If insecurity was the issue;
shouldnt i be the culprit!

Its been six months now...
I'm still wiping those tears.
while he is playing with yours...
and maybe you were right...

I should move on...;
but dont you ever feel sorry...
I'm living in such misery;
while you are basking in his glory.

Its not fair this thing we call love;
where one feels pain and the other nothing!
I wish your thoughts stop haunting me;
the way you stopped wanting me.

I wonder at the times you looked into my eyes;
but actually saw someone else...
you have shattered my dreams;
sadly i still live with all the spirit...

And im crying out for you;
but you just dont see me...
come back...you know ill always be by your side;
If anything, for this you will never be sorry!

When love is an eternal wait....

Under the balcony, below her roof;
the boy stands singing for her.
And he does it everyday without fail,
her windows are closed, she has company for dinner,
but he still sings for her.

"listen to me, now and forever,
I'm hurting and i'm crying,
these days I have lost sleep,
my heart aches and i cannot breathe.

I try to be happy because you are happy,
But deep down it all seems so wrong.
I wish i am still in there somewhere...
Somewhere in your heart!

You asked me to move on, that I had to,
And I died the moment I heard that.
But I understand why you would say it,
Though it still hurts. A lot.

I just want all this to stop,
and go back in time.
when you were in my arms...
it wasn't so far back...
when I was yours.
And you were mine...

But life will go on,
The wind now blows in another direction,
What cruel tricks fate plays.
You're in my life one day,
and now you have just gone away.

Sometimes I wish I could turn around and die,
but love is a funny game,
all this just reminds me about you
and I end up loving you all over again.

So baby, enjoy the company, but remember,
Ill be waiting here, i wont disappear.
I might shed a tear.
But I still will be waiting here

Under the balcony, below her roof
her windows were closed, she had company for dinner
the boy stood singing for her
"Like moonlight was always meant to shine
baby, i still wish you were mine...."

Coming back to life.

Hey how are you..
I'm doing great...life is good...
keep in touch...take care

Did you just think of me again...
do I still matter to you?
do you not have someone else now,
Am I not an after thought?

People still ask me what happened;
I say I don't know, but all I do know is;
you entered my life, reached my heart,
plucked my heart and threw it away.

And all I ask for is my life...
the one you snatched away;
I'm sick of crying....
I'm glad I'm not drinking....

I wish I had it in me to tell you;
"Excuse me, but you are in my way"
and to shout out aloud -
"I can get someone better than you"...

But I am weak and hurt;
and I know I cannot wait longer,
I have to grow stronger,
taller, better, faster, smarter.

And there are things I will cherish;
You touched me in ways no one ever could.
but its time I go away'
Its time to say goodbye....

And everytime I move away I get your mail:

Hey how are you..
I'm doing great...life is good...
keep in touch...take care

I apologise.

I apologise to you...my past,
not knowing truth for what it is...
I apologise for holding on...
for letting hope control my heart...
I apologise for not speaking out,
for not letting this pain inside me free...

I'm sorry for letting you go..
And sorry that I just don't give up
but I love you still, I hope you know

I apologise for not being;
what you asked me to be...
I apologise for not holding on to you stronger
when you backed away from me
I apologise for not asking questions
because you asked me not to try...

I'm sorry for never being brave
I tried the hardest I could...
but you were too far away to save...

And I hope you know that
although you walked away from me
I'll be the one my heart will blame

So here is my late goodbye
just ignore the tears that fall...
even though my heart burns and I cry

I apologise that I will have moments
When I think of us at our best
and when you read all these, please know...
It's just the end that I regret....

Rain, rain go away.

In the night;
with the candle still burning bright;
I lay all alone, with no one else in sight...

With the rains still pouring hard;
It felt as though the whole world was crying for me.

You were gone...but how I wish I could be with you now;
Can someone help me reach you? I just don't know how...

In the day, thinking of you makes me weep;
while the nights have just stolen my sleep!

while you said goodbye and took your final breath;
It was me...who died a silent death...

And as the one tear fell of me;
It blew off the mystic shapes of the candle flame.

I don't have anythin else to say...
Rain rain go away...Rain rain go away.

Broken Glass

The smoke's got my life all dazy;
Another cigarette lit, another minute lost...
And as the cigarette disappears, so will I...

6 months later, its all just the same...
Tired of convincin you, tired of this pain...
Just haven't seen sunshine...life just seems so empty

Tired of banging that glass on the table;
Wishing I could let the broken glass shred my heart
Coz you seem to have stained my heart;

My heart forces me to take ownership
of this life I refuse...
Guess Its time I leave...to destination unknown

And yet I wish I could blame you for all of this...
Sadly there is nothing evil in what you have done...

Except leaving me behind....

Incomplete!

In my school's campus
where childhood love blooms
I met this beautiful girl
Oh how happy I was...

And as i spoke to her
My lips trembled so...
And as we finally fell in love...
I cried while kissing her...

Now she's gone and I wish I could see her
To ask her if she still loves me
And tell her that my heart aches!
coz life without her...

seems so incomplete!

Don't say goodbye!

I look away and I smile...
Guess I have cried enough...
And at the end of my life

I tried and I failed
Guess I never got what I wanted...
And at the end of my life

I'm dying and I have lost it
Guess I wanted to hold you hand
And at the end of my life

I still say:
It takes a minute to say hello;
and forever to say goodbye!

A tear in my pillow

I'm starin at the ceiling and its late in the night,
Wishing you'll come back, but that seems nowhere in sight.
I'm tossing and turning and im dreamin of you
I dreamt you'd be back, and how i wish dreams come true.

I wake up to find me alone and a tear starts to roll
I'm weeping quietly with the pillow that I hold
Every single day I pray for you, my love.
The first time i saw you, i felt you were an angel from above.

And I prayed to god " Oh please make her my bride to be"
Fate decided otherwise and I cried " why did it have to be me"
And still I wake up alone with a tear in my pillow.
Wondering If I should call you just to say Hello.

Thinkin about you all the time, sometimes messes up my head
And I fall asleep, not sad but dreaming of you instead...
And this is what happens to me every single night.
I pray that you are beside me and switch on the light.

But all i see is a tear in my pillow.
All I see is a tear in my pillow...

A tear in my pillow - PART 2

So, I'm in bed, tryin my best to sleep.
Its been a fine day, i aint gonna think deep...
hmm, good thoughts about you, thats fine...
It will be a new day soon and ill rise and shine.

Do you ever think of me, I sometimes wonder?
Damn, here I go again and my mind starts to wander...
Then I imagine you lyin besides me;
Hugs and kisses all over my body.

It feels so real, I sense you are near;
And you say "Honey, I love you' in my ear.
I smile and say "I love you too"
Wishing that this will one day come true.

And then I fall asleep thinking about you;
In my dreams all this seems so true.
Look in your dream and tell me what you see?
Every now and then is it me? is it me?

I keep telling myself you will be mine tommorow...
Half awake, I get up and adjust my pillow...
Then my eyes open and you are nowhere to be seen!
And I feel so lonely
ONCE AGAIN!

Missing you like crazy...

Sittin on the porch, its raining...
I cant escape the rain
I cant escape this pain!
And I'm missing you like crazy...

Babes, I love you
still do,
and im still crying,
and I'M missing you like crazy....

little drops hitting the window pane..
I'm goin insane...
Sitting alone in solitude
And I'm missing you like crazy....

The thunders' crashin down...
I'm losing my mind
Tryin to erase memories...
And I'm missing you like crazy....

And all the people, they feel ashamed...
Everyday is another today...
Its just the months that change....
And I'm missing you like crazy...

re: The letter - a reply!

Hey hi,
Yes, I'm fine and just read your mail;
Waited for it every single day, without fail!
Yes I'm hurt, but I dont need any pity.
I always loved you, so I have moved away with dignity.

I wanted to be with you too, but I was away;
If I really had a choice, I would have never wanted it this way.
Someone needs me at home, we dont talk much, but he is ailing;
he has no one now and if im not here, as a son i'd be failing.

On the other hand I have a career which is waitin;
Wish, we'd have managed this phase and still continued datin'
Coz in a year, I was ready to ask for your hand;
Holdin hands,being in love on our very own island!

Everyone knows it’s been like this from the start
And I have loved you with every beat of my heart.
Cause you’re my first love and you’re the last
There can't be another, I’ve pledged you my heart.

Find someone better, but I hope he never hurts you;
Coz you should never feel what i'm goin through.
Thats why I ask you to love someone...
who loves you more than you do...

I guess this is all I want to say...
Thank you and have a nice day!